So I guess this is THE website to go to when I can’t sleep. There’s too much thoughts running through my mind, it doesn’t stop and it never does unless I drug myself. But that’s not the point to why I’m here. I’m here because I haven’t been writing and I suppose I’m here to let the words run freely. I can’t promise I’ll be creative but I’ll most likely just rant. so here it goes…
Two people sat down alongside the ash on the tray and drew me on a piece of paper. Left me in a coffee shop and skipped away. I wondered the streets with my back to a white wall. I became afraid of what i never saw behind me. A young man made a smile on my face. He had drawn me a flower and a door. A smile, a door which led me back to him. The stars in his eyes brighten me. He kept me close to the lead of his pencil. He held my hand and sang me a song. I had realized what love was. I began to drip from my eyes and as the tear touched my toes he was gone.
this passage was written by me a long long time ago..I don’t even remember to have written this.
Anyway so today I’ve realized that this year two thousand and ten will mark the last year of my adolescence. Before this year ends I will be twenty years of age. I’m only getting older. But I like this year so far and I promise myself that I will enjoy this year as much as I can because I can never return to this age again. Time only moves forward and I wanna flow freely with it.
there’s too much to write down
so nathalie’s having a party tonight.
But I did go to a party the other night. So let me tell you about that.
Well my newly found friends and I celebrated maldeevs’s seventeenth birthday and it was feckin great. It was a bit of a blur but I had a very content and fulfilling night. I was with the right people at the right time, I’m glad that they came into my life because I needed a new group. They’re like a breathe of fresh air. Yes they are very young compared to me but I can see past that. I love they’re personality as each individuals and as a whole.They’re good kids I’ll tell you that much…typical and nonconformists at the same time.
But for my old friends…well I’m still proud of having or had them as friends. But I guess they’re in the past now. Those memories are in the past now with them and they’ll stay there. I look back on it now and I’m happy that I can look back on them now. I’m glad that everything did happen the way it did. I was able to let go and move on.
but Lilly’s still here…well I have a special category for her
well relationship wise…at the moment I’m just going with the flow…My feelings for HER I guess that’s how i’ll refer to her now umm have slowly faded. Yes I miss being in a relationship but I know the right one will come my way. I’m satisfied I suppose. The feeling of solitude will always linger but I suppose having the right people around me takes the feeling away.
But currently I’ve been a big fan of lady Gaga. She’s def someone different and I can honestly say that she inspires me…she leaves me SPEECHLESS
